Corruption

Three women. One Johnson. A shared baptism that is not water. Midwives march in ranks. The novella ends where forever begins.

Weeks of peeling fuse two Rileys into one current. A diner pilgrimage. Dorothy in pigtails. Yellow brick. You were always His.

The Christian pop star walks into the lemon’s glass condo and peels her open—wrist, throat, denial—without finishing the rite. Liberal pour. No seal yet.

At a sterile Faith & Media Summit, lemon meets frankincense. One arm brush. One answer on a live mic. Indoctrination finds a microphone.

A Christian pop star and a porn goddess share one name—and one forbidden ache. Revelation begins with envy, a laptop click, and a name like a spill: DRIZL.

One baptism was never going to be enough for me. I tried to make it work. I tried to believe that getting filled once would hold me. But it didn’t.

Jesus said something that most Christians conveniently ignore: Unless anyone is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. But one baptism was never going to be enough for me.

I turned a pretty, marriage-material Rachel into a cross-eyed, brain-melted Leah—the version of her that gets used repeatedly instead of chosen once.

Most people assume that becoming a Christian would make a girl less of a hoe. But for me? Becoming a Christian didn’t make me less of a hoebag.

I had every intention of going to Bible study. I really did. I had my Bible, my notebook. But then he texted me.

It started with one night. One stupid, reckless, incredibly wet night. That was the night I became known as the Squirt Queen of My Sunday School Class.

I’ve prayed about it more than once. I’ve sat in my car after church and asked God to deliver me. Jesus hasn't delivered me from my cum addiction... And I'm glad.

There’s a running joke in certain circles: The more modest the girl, the sloppier the head. And while it’s said half-jokingly, there’s a surprising amount of truth to it.

I didn’t mean to lie at first. When my small group leader asked if anyone wanted to join a 21-day fast, I raised my hand without thinking. I just didn’t say from what.

She had the whole image down. She was trying—really trying—to be a Proverbs 31 woman. And for a while, she was doing a damn good job. Until I turned her into a Proverbs 5 whore.

I used to pray for a child in quiet shame, but God shut my womb so that I could be creampied, marked, and made to overflow instead—and now I sing.

I grew up hearing the same teaching over and over: Build your life on the Rock. It was always presented as a metaphor. But I learned the real reason I ride hard cock.

I tried for years to speak in tongues in church, but it only happened the first time I was face-down and being used so deeply that my soul forgot how to talk.

I used to fear becoming the Whore of Babylon, but now I thank Him every day that He called me to be her—the great prostitute who is fully, gladly, and without apology used.

I used to beg God to take my lust away, but He never did—and now I understand I have been given over to my sinful desires for a reason.

There is a very short window of time after a girl gets saved.

I used to offer help in normal ways, like Rebekah watering camels for a stranger—until the offer that came out of my mouth was on my knees instead.

I didn’t set out to become the girl who gets passed around. But somewhere along the way, 'available' stopped meaning emotionally open and started meaning something else entirely.

I used to think I had it all together until the Holy Spirit filled me—not in the clean way I expected, but with holy spit while I was on my knees.

I’ve noticed something disturbing over the past year. On the Sundays when I take care of my pastor before service—when I get on my knees and let him empty himself into me first—his sermon is always better.

I used to stand in front of a classroom every Sunday morning with a Bible in my hand and a smile on my face. Tonight, I’m probably going to let at least two men finish inside me before I go home.

I know how this sounds. Before I got saved, my pussy tasted… fine. Nothing special. But I’ve tested it enough times now to be confident: becoming a Christian made my pussy taste better.

I used to pray a lot. Then one night, after I had just finished sucking a man’s cock until he came down my throat, something shifted. I was still on my knees.

I used to think bearing burdens meant praying or casseroles, but now I count it all joy when I become the place where others empty their loads—with my mouth open, my body willing, and my heart full of a strange, stubborn joy.

I used to think “serving” meant volunteering in the nursery or helping set up chairs before service. That was before I understood what real service actually required.

There wasn’t a slow build-up. It was one specific, irreversible day. And then one Thursday afternoon, I stopped trying to be a good Christian girl and started being a very good fuck.

I used to declare bold spiritual words over myself, not realizing I was prophesying my own corruption and eventual use by the Spirit.

Church girls rarely say what they actually want. Instead, they’ve developed a sophisticated language of spiritual-sounding excuses that almost always mean one thing: I want you to fuck me after service.

The 5 Stages of Blasphemy Conversion—the journey from innocent church girl to proud, dripping cum dumpster.

I used to guard my eyes like they were holy, until he spat in my face and came in my eyes—and instead of feeling ruined, I felt seen for the first time.